A Community of One

I read today’s Reverb 10 prompt over 12 hours ago and am finally able to write something. Initially, I was going to post about the community that I found/made surrounding my film and the work that has come out of it, but that would be too easy. Instead, I’ve decided to post about the most important community, that of oneself.

Over the last year, I have really spent time exploring who I truly am; getting to know myself better by questioning what I perceived as good/bad, right/wrong. In some instances, I wound up interrogating myself; in others, wrapping mself up in a giant hug; yet others, sitting on my couch and bawling like an infant.

Sounds nutty, and it might be, but learning myself, with the goals of integrating all of who I am (body, mind and spirit) into one cohesive community focusing on love, creating, and giving, is working for me. I have found that I truly can’t give anything or be of benefit to the outside community unless I have already given the same to myself.

This past year has led me to giving up some old habits, thoughts, ideas and people, all while adopting new ones that are allowing my own, personal community to grow. Because of this, I feel that I have been able to connect with others, both online and off, in a deeper way. I have met and interacted with some seriously creative and amazing folks this year.

As we enter 2011, I want to continue to connect more deeply with myself. I want to always be authentic, self-actualized and conscious — only embracing what is right for me and what I need to grow and with this, will come the people, places and things needed to fulfill that experience.